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Easter is: Yeshua lives!
Yeshua was mocked, beaten, tortured and hung on a cross. He bore the heavy burden of sin of the whole world, was forsaken by His friends and family and even by His heavenly Father. After three days, He rose from the dead, now He is the victorious conquering King! He sits at the right hand of the Father where He prays and pleads for us. God's loving Father heart for all people was reflected in Yeshua's life when He lived on earth.
Yeshua says in John 14: 9: "Whoever has seen Me has seen the Father." During His life here on earth, He showed that He was moved by all people, men, women and children alike. We see that He was respectful of women: there are several encounters with women described in the Bible. When parents brought their children to Yeshua so that He could touch them, Yeshua said, "Let the children come to Me and do not hinder them, for for such is the kingdom of God" (Luke 18: 16).
What grief the Lord will take from all the atrocities people are capable of under the influence of Satan. We live in a broken world where people face unbearable suffering. Just think of the victims and survivors of satanic ritual abuse (srm). What they go through is beyond comprehension.
Soon we will remember the suffering and death and resurrection of Yeshua during Good Friday and Easter. For victims and survivors of srm, another difficult period dawns. At Easter, during cult meetings, curses are specifically pronounced on all that are alive in the eyes of Yeshua. Death is sanctioned and attempts are made to destroy life. Children are raped on an upside-down cross, a newborn baby is sacrificed.
Our God loves righteousness and hates wickedness (Psalm 45: 8). His kingdom is a kingdom of righteousness. For He is coming to judge the earth, He will judge the world in righteousness and the nations with His truth (Psalm 96: 13). And until then, may we pray and bring all those suffering through srm before the Throne of the Lord of lords our great awesome God.
In this prayer letter, Maddy tells how she experiences Good Friday and Easter. This is followed by thanksgiving points and answers to prayer. Specific prayer points for different subjects and people are then mentioned. It also tells about helping survivors during some cult nights and covers the dates of cult nights with information and prayer points for the respective cult nights.
We make an appeal to pray for the various issues and people mentioned in this prayer letter. We also ask for prayer (and fasting) during the cult days/nights mentioned. Someone once said, "Our prayers can go where we cannot. When we pray, there are no borders, no prison walls and no closed doors." Let us persevere in prayer.
Good Friday and Easter (by Maddy) Good Friday? Easter? Everyone sees it as a holiday. I see it as horrible days. No party, continuous images intrude on you. Everywhere you go and look, you are confronted with your past. You don't want to think about it but you have to, because running away doesn't work. I look at my past, as many as a thousand pieces lie on the floor. I am trying to make the puzzle, never so consciously experiencing these days. Aware of my own DIS and aware of my past. I feel a lot more emotions, I feel a lot of pain, sadness, anger, frustration. I am not so sure what to do and what not to do today and these days, my head is spinning. I have to behave maturely, I have to, I have to, I have to, I have to ... I have to stay here, I cannot and must not drown in my past. I don't have to think ... I shouldn't feel ... I need to give myself structure ... I have to do it myself today ... I am not allowed to ask for help ... Stupid days ... I don't want to eat ... not think about eating ... But I have to ... Not thinking ... not feeling ... Making lists of what to do ... But my body won't, my head won't. It feels like there is a heavy block of concrete on me ... This is how Good Friday and Easter feel to me ... |
Thanksgiving and answers to prayer
Engagement
The Friends of Esthers team is grateful for the involvement of more and more people who support our work. We see passion and faith and this builds us up and helps us continue this work. We have been able to give several speaking engagements recently so that knowledge around srm is broadened and prayer is more and more supported. We also held a training day with involved aid workers to broaden knowledge and make relationships stronger. We cannot do it alone, but together we are a Gideon's Army!
Finance
Friends of Esthers is also grateful for donations that have come in over the past year. We have already been able to do a lot with these. Think of multiple diagnostic pathways and building a healthy network around a survivor. It is necessary that finances continue to come in so that the help to the survivors we are currently helping can continue.
Courageous helpers
We had the opportunity to speak to courageous helpers. We have started working with several of them to be able to turn their backs on the cult for good. This is a long and intensive process that requires much wisdom and prayer. We are grateful for every courageous step they take and grateful for the strength and opportunities we keep experiencing. God opens doors and gives us what we need.
PRAY FOR ...
The prayer of a righteous person accomplishes much, because strength is given to it (James 5:16).
General
As Friends of Esthers has received many applications from helpers, but is still growing and needs to train people to help, we have a registration stop. Pray that survivors who cannot knock on our door now will remain hopeful of salvation and that they will find the right people in their path who can help them do so.
Pray precisely also for many applications from practitioners and helpers so that we can equip and guide people to help survivors. Any survivor who chooses to exit needs at least two therapists for several years. We are not just looking for experienced trauma therapists or highly skilled people, we are looking for inquisitive people with their hearts in the right place, with no possibilities of blackmail, who want to learn to become trauma therapists or counsellors. Pray that people will be courageous to use their skills and passion to pull people out of darkness. The more practitioners and helpers there are, the less burdensome it becomes for the practitioners who are currently pulling this cart. Any trustworthy person with a heart focused on Yeshua can help.
Pray that the perpetrators will have a meeting with Yeshua and see what He is doing in the lives of survivors. Pray for courage and outstretched arms in their lives where they feel the safety and freedom to repent and start their lives anew.
When creating new networks around survivors, we take a careful approach. We want people to participate with the right motives and put the interests of the survivor first. Pray for more networkers. Pray for networkers' process of wanting to learn, grow and stand beside someone. Pray for courage and confidence.
Pray for more host families, More safe spaces for survivors. Pray that people who are willing will and dare go the extra mile. Pray for courage and especially lots of love and for open doors and the right match with the right survivor.
The Hendriks committee investigation report was presented on the darkest day of the year, just before Christmas. For the survivors who collaborated on the interviews, an extra hard time, because in our view, it did not turn out to be such a good study. The opinions of the 20 mental health practitioners can be read here: https:// www.lichtopsrm.com/brief–ggz–treatment group–n–a–v–final report–committee–hendriks–independent–secondopinion–necessary/
Pray for justice and a fair investigation that will bring the truth to light.
We hear that more and more places in the Netherlands and abroad are praying for survivors of ritual abuse. Pray for even more prayers, especially also during cult nights. Pray that the spiritual army will actively and passionately seek justice and righteousness in the spiritual world. Pray that churches and Christian congregations will take more and more responsibility to want to fight this battle together as a big family. So that we as Christians stand together around survivors and are also ready to embrace perpetrator-perpetrators in love, so that darkness loses its power.
Pray for all aid workers involved (both professional and voluntary) who work on behalf of srm survivors. Pray that the Lord will protect them, give them wisdom and insight to do this important work. Pray that they will be strong and courageous, as the Lord says in Joshua 1: 9 "Be strong and courageous, do not be afraid and do not be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go."
Persons
Adam
Adam is the adult son of a survivor. He is caught in the clutches of the cult and has not yet found his way to freedom. Pray that the path his mother took may give him hope and courage to step out too. Pray for his wife and children, for safety and prospects.
Christiaan
With Christiaan, we have been on the road for a while. Pray for breakthroughs and wisdom in the help we can and want to offer him. Pray for courage to accept our help.
Geertje and her family
At the time of publishing this prayer letter, there is still no final verdict in the legal dispute surrounding Geertje. However, her parents are experiencing increasing recovery in Geertje and trust Yeshua to bring a solution. Pray for a breakthrough, that Geertje may continue to live with her mother and fully recover from the effects of the abuse.
Esther
Esther writes: "I have been fully integrated since October 2022. This also brings a lot of difficulties, think of all the feelings and thoughts I can now have all at once. It is quite tough because of this. Nevertheless, I am also grateful for the past period. I have been able to testify several times and people draw hope from my process. I am very grateful for that. Pray for safety and that the cult will leave me alone. That they realise that I will not stop progressing and that it is pointless to hang around me!" https:// youtu.be/zmzQ–fSBRdc
Els
Els is a courageous practitioner who works with survivors of srm. She has long been under fire in her work. Pray that she will continue to have the courage and perseverance to be on the frontline for these survivors. Pray also for doors to remain open so that she can continue to help them and that she will be seen as a full, skilled practitioner.
Jan
Jan is an older preschooler who shows characteristics of severe abuse in his play behaviour and in other ways, with possible signs of organised abuse. A lot is going on around Jan. Pray that he will live in a place where he will be safe and get the treatment he needs. Pray that he will start to feel safe and develop as a child should.
Mirthe
Mirthe asks prayer to start a good network. She also asks prayer for her health because Mirthe has many physical complaints. She also suffers from relapses. Pray also that she can resist triggers and that (with help) she can avoid going with the wrong people.
Tamara
Tamara is a 10-year-old girl who knows one of the handlers. It is not possible to help her at the moment, but the signs are serious. Her parents keep the doors closed. Pray for open doors so that a path of recovery can be entered.
Ella
Ella is in a deep process of getting more in touch with her parts and her feelings, and her body. Pray for her that she may gain the strength to continue to cope with this. Pray also that she may experience that God is there and carrying her. Right now, connection remains a struggle point for Ella, but also to learn to distinguish truth from lies inside. Ella herself also feels that she is not trying hard enough in her process to be worthy of help. Pray for Ella that this will change in her system, that she may experience that she is allowed to be there and not have to prove anything but be helped.
C.
C. has made very brave choices to make her life safer, both outside and inside. Together with her counsellors, she is on her way to doing this, but is encountering a lot of inner resistance due to programming. Prayers for a breakthrough. And also pray that she will be able to hold on to what she chooses, that it will not be stolen and that her inner connection will not fall apart again and again. Pray also that she may become more and more fixed in Yeshua and in how He sees her. So that she can no longer just be brought down by darkness. Pray that she may become more and more powerful.
K.
There is a big prayer and help request from and for K., namely for transport that can take her from her home town to Elburg and back once every fortnight (sometimes once a month). Both she and her social workers have already tried all possible channels, have asked for help in many churches, but so far there is no one willing to do it. This is very painful for her, precisely because she struggles so much with God. His people may have nice words in a church service but when it comes to helping someone coming out of the darkness of srm, no one seems to give home.
Pray with us that there will be a breakthrough in this and should you wish to help, please apply to fragilewing@chello.nl. A fee is given for each time someone rides.
Joos
Joos states: "Happy prayers for my foster sister, who is doing very badly. She has ovarian cancer and metastases, stage four. Pray that the last chemotherapy may take effect, or else she may go to her Heavenly Father soon. And pray for me too. Besides this situation, there is a lot of grieving for my children who have been killed. Pray that I will find a way to live on with this."
Jennifer
Jennifer says: "Despite the fact that it has been clear for thirteen years that our brains have to process far more stimuli than most people's and are also hypersensitive with hearing (hyperacusis) and we have so much jaw tension due to overstimulation and CPTSS/DIS that without braces and a night splint we literally bite our molars into pieces and we have autism, the health insurer continues to be difficult. As a result, an amount of more than €5000 is now not reimbursed, which we need for aids and medical expenses." Pray for recognition of the diagnoses and for reimbursement of aids and taxi transport. Jennifer feels that she is always a burden everywhere and that she really should not have been there. Pray that she may experience that she is valuable and that Yeshua loves her. Pray that Yeshua will restore and heal these feelings. And as Jennifer herself asks, "That if it is God's plan, we are and may become less eccentric when it comes to infrequent diagnoses? By, say, God healing those problems?"
Ladybird
She asks for prayer because she suffers a lot from horrible memories with intense feelings. In daily life, these feelings are triggered by unpleasant events, for example at work, which sometimes mix up the present and the past. She often feels very alone in this. She asks prayer for help in coping processes, for friends who understand what is going on and to experience God's nearness in this.
Helen
Helen is a brave survivor who sought help from Friends of Esthers and started the process of getting out some time ago. She wants to give thanks that she recently took a very big, beautiful step namely being baptised. Pray for courage in her process, pray for strength and love for those around her and pray for wisdom on how we can help her in this.
Carnation
Is a practitioner who has been working with survivors of ritual abuse for a long time. She is regularly attacked spiritually which also manifests itself in physical complaints. Again and again, we see that prayer really helps. It would be nice if an army could also pray for her! Pray that she perseveres, pray for wisdom and insight.
Helping survivors during cult nights
During the cult nights of Christmas and New Year's Eve, we have been digitally available to survivors. During cult nights, it is harder for them to realise that it is better not to go back to the cult and to stay safe. Many survivors live alone and during holidays, practitioners are often off. They are also days when many people spend with family, but for survivors, their own family is not always safe. They don't want to "disrupt" other people's nice family moments and the result is that they retreat and are alone. Then night falls, the nights when they are expected to come by the cult. All the memories come back that hit them in the middle of their hearts. Their baby they lost during that night, the desolation they have felt and now feel extra again. Then it is very difficult to stay safe at home and not go back.
We would like to be there for those who have to face this gigantic struggle every time not to relapse. We want to listen to them and encourage them to stay home and affirm that staying home is the right thing to do. If they don't manage to stay home, which of course we hope they don't, we also want to be there for them so they don't have to bear the panic and anxiety alone. These moments are not supposed to be done by anyone alone.
During the cult nights of Easter, Walpurgis Night and 4 and 5 May, we will again be digitally available for survivors. Pray that survivors will dare to ask for our help during these nights. Pray for wisdom during the conversations and that God's guidance will be there!
(Should you wish to use this option as a survivor, we ask you to register yourself with us through your practitioner. We will not ask for data traceable to your identity).
Prayer calendar
Cult dates with times of rituals and additional information and prayer points
Days like new moon and full moon are days when the cult comes together extra and the intensity is heavier. Pray that these nights will be disrupted and the spiritual power they experience will be powerless. (Note: if it says March 20, it refers to the night of March 19-20.)
- March
- March new moon
March 24
30 March - 7 April preparations Good Friday
From the night of 29-30 March to the night of 5-6 April, there will be cult meetings every night from 01:00 - 03:00. This week is all about preparations for Good Friday and Easter.
Victims will be "made ready" to be sacrificed, to attend orgies and there will be deliveries where babies are abused and sacrificed. There will be rituals and sacrifices of animals as well as humans and sex orgies involving demons. People are working towards the climax on April 7.
Pray for hope during these nights. That it is not hopeless, but that the victims will know that there are people who are on the ground for them these nights. Pray for the (new) mothers who will lose their babies (again). Pray for comfort and that Yeshua may show them where their baby is going. Safe in Yeshua's arms.
During this week, 6 April is full moon so this night is extra heavy.
6 on 7 April Good Friday
Cult meetings from 0:00 - 6:00.
This night is dominated by the resurrection of satan. He is portrayed as the conqueror of evil (after all, Satan is seen as the good in the cult). Someone is sacrificed on the cross for his glory, however, this cross is reversed.
Pray for the victim on the cross, that like Stephen, he may behold the glory of God and that this may be a testimony in the group. Pray that Satan and his henchmen cannot come, that there will be spiritual domes around the victims and that they will be untouchable. After all, for our God, all things are possible.
- on 9 April Easter Sunday
Cult meetings from 0:00 - 6:00.
Today, Easter takes place in the cult. In the cult, it is not called Easter, it is the day of resurrection. During Easter, curses are specifically pronounced on everything alive in the eyes of Yeshua. Death is sanctioned and attempts are made to destroy life. Children are raped on an upside-down cross, the curse on its head. A newborn baby is sacrificed and more.
- on 10 April Easter Monday Cult meetings from 1:00 - 4:00.
The day of the great curse. It is a direct attack on the Christian life. The darkness comes together, as it were. Demons are summoned in large groups and sent out to the great adversary, God. After this ultimate session, a great orgy takes place in which babies are also used and die from the effects of these rapes.
- April new moon
- - 30 April Walpurgis preparation week Cult meetings mainly from 1:00 - 3:00.
This whole week is the cult festival, a preparation week for Walpurgis. It has become spring, the fertility season of the cult. The beginning of spring, but especially the beginning of purification. During this week, children (aged between nine and 16) will be made pregnant so that they can give birth to a child during Christmas. Some girls will be "saved" for Walpurgis Night. They will not be used for sexual intercourse the week before and will only be made pregnant during Walpurgis during a special ceremony. Their cycle is geared to these days, using fertility drugs.
30 April - 1 May Walpurgis
Cult gatherings from 0:00 - 4:00 Walpurgis night and on 1 May daytime gatherings from 10:00 - 22:00 with closing hunting parties.
The night of 30 April to 1 May (Walpurgisnacht) and during the day on 1 May are the climax. Sacrifices are then made with babies, sex is practised with people who have been killed beforehand and orgies are experienced with mainly children under eight years old. It is heralded with a 25-year-old woman being burnt alive on a blazing fire. The next day, there are gatherings and when the sun sets, hunting parties for children will take place in forests. These hunting parties officially end this period, with the "best" children remaining. Not all children survive the hunting parties.
Spiritual demonic activities are intense these days. Cult members strive to go as far as possible into ecstasy so that a deep, intense connection is felt with their king, Satan. They worship him as we worship Yeshua. They see him as THE light, THE life and THE answer. The spiritual interaction with demons and during the climax between 03:00 - 04:00 in this night with Satan himself (if they have done well enough) is the real climax. It is intensely experienced, there is crying and they feel god.
The darkness has all the freedom, there is no blockage, no light. This very freedom of the darkness is what feels so powerful and which makes it impossible for a victim to imagine being able to get out of this. The power of darkness is impossible to match ... at least that's how it feels in that moment.
Specific prayer points are
That victims feel there is a God who is bigger and stronger. That deep inside, they feel the lifeline with Yeshua and hold the hope that there is outcome.
That the perpetrators start to doubt, doubt is sin in the cult. Doubt can kill them, but is the only way to possibly get out.
That Yeshua with his mighty army of angels will disrupt the demonic spiritual rapture. That His battle during this night can be present in that space of the cult and everyone there will witness the power of our King Yeshua.
That the meetings are disrupted and that in doing so, the victims will not be harmed.
That there no new spiritual bonds and demons can enter the victims, that no new hooks will be struck so that freedom will be closer than ever.
That the meetings will not take place can find.
Disembarkers have a very difficult time this night, they can be attacked and mentally "taken" or raped. Pray for them to be under Yeshua's protection and the attacks cannot reach them.
1 and 2 May Cult Festivals
- May Remembrance Day
Cult meetings from 0:00 - 3:00.
Memorial Day, demons impersonate important deceased cult figures and there is a sex orgy with them.
- May Liberation Day and full moon Cult meetings from 0:00 - 10:00.
- May Ascension
- May New Moon
28-29 May Pentecost
Cult meetings from 0:00 - 3:00.
It is a night of mostly demonic activities celebrated in a physical gathering. The summoning of demons and Satan takes centre stage, with the aim of increasing their power and territory. One way this is done is through a sacrifice with a newborn born in the cult. This happens in local cult groups scattered across the country. Afterwards, as almost always, there is a sex orgy. 4 June Full moon
18 June New Moon
21-23 June Summer festivals
Will you continue to pray with us?
Carla, Esther and Aline
This prayer letter may be distributed widely, especially in churches. 'My people perish for lack of knowledge,' says the Bible (Hosea 4:6). So let us not look away anymore. Let us fix our eyes on Jeshua and embrace injustice, those caught in it, and take them before the throne of God!
For more information on satanic ritual abuse, see among other things
www.fragilewing.com www.lichtopsrm.com www.lichtoplevens.nl
Documentary 'glass shards and dark rituals', Argos VPRO, 27 June 2020
Documentary 'Lisa's story', Argos VPRO, 8 Dec 2018
Documentary, continuation of Lisa's story, Argos VPRO, Feb 2019
For whom and by whom?
This prayer letter is intended for every Christian who wants to join in prayer on the basis of good information. It is an initiative of Carla Hamoen, Esther and Aline Terpstra. Carla and Aline both professionally help survivors of satanic ritual abuse to get out of this cult and to recover physically, emotionally and spiritually. Esther was born into a church family that worshipped Satan and has wrestled herself free from the grip of this cult.
If you know people who might be interested in joining us in prayer, please feel free to forward this letter and the prayer points. If you no longer wish to receive this prayer letter and the prayer points, an email back will suffice.